Saturday, May 11, 2013

Goodbye my dear friend...




Today is a very sad day for me. My best four legged friend, Lennon, has passed away this morning.

My eyes fill with tears as I type this, but I owe him so much.

I used to be terrified of dogs since I was a kid and a huge dog chased me down the street and bit my leg. It was so bad that I could not even go to a park because if I heard a dog walking 50 feet away from me, I would immediately get back into the car. One day me and my them boyfriend Mr. Danita saw a huge old english sheepdog walk behind us and he was very friendly, and I thought it would be nice to have one like that... If I ever was brave enough to have a dog.

Time went by and we got married and I decided it was time to overcome my fear of dogs. So we got a puppy... It wasn't easy. The first days I tought he could get out of his tiny cage, climb up to my bed and do me in my sleep, but eventually I realized he was not going to kill me and I fell head over heels with his sweetness. He always greeted me when I got home, looked for me for snuggling when I was watching TV and eventually grew to be an 80 pound lapdog. I could not sit to watch TV without him jumping on my lap. So, that's the first thing I owe you Lennon, getting rid of my fear of dogs.


One of our best memories is when I took him to the mountains to jump around in the snow. That day it was full of knee deep powdery snow and he jumped around like a black and white bunny all afternoon. He was enjoying the moment so much, not a care in the world except enjoying going up and down the mountain until he was so exhausted from all the activity he fell asleep all the way back home. The next morning he woke up at 6:00 AM and barked excitedly, jumped in our bed and requested to be taken to the mountains again, it was so sweet. I owe you teaching me to live the moment, and enjoy it to the max. You taught me to enjoy the present and nothing more.

Then in time I took a watercolor class and I fell in love with painting, and for my first real assignment I painted Lennon. It was incredible to see that with a bunch of pigments, a brush and water I could create something with meaning. I showed it to my friends and everyone loved it, they liked it so much that they ordered prints and that's when I knew I had found my artist's call. Thank you for that Lennon, because you gave me a new career and taught me that I must follow my heart and do what I love.

And today, you taught me the toughest lessons of everything you taught me. As you were fading away, you taught me about letting go. I saw your big eyes as the first time we met, and you told me it was OK, that it was time to go and that everything was going to be all right. Everything that has a beginning has an end, and we must accept it with love, remember the good times we had and finally say good bye when the time comes.

I feel a big hole in my heart, but it's OK. You are now in a happy place. Thank you for all you taught me, thank you for all your love. You will always live on. 

37 comments:

Donna said...

As I sit here crying....I am sending the biggest hug. I am so sorry for your loss Danita.

I am so happy that Lennon taught you so much! You are very lucky.

Dorothy said...

Send you all my love ..

Melanie said...

I am sorry for your big los. Hope you can have peace with it someday.
Liefs, Melanie

Lisa said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. You had a wonderful friend and a loving, loyal companion. What great lessons he taught you, too.
I know you'll miss him very much, and I pray that you find peace and that you are able to smile at all the wonderful memories you have of him.

Kathy, PaperPumpkin said...

Oh, Danita, I know how much you loved Lennon and I can feel your sadness. Sending a hug your way, friend. Your tribute to him is so beautiful. You made his life a happy, loving one.

Cynthia Myers said...

You have my deepest sympathies.
Your story of Lennon has me in tears.
There is nothing like the love of a good dog.
I am so sorry.
xoxo

Emma Elliott said...

Hugs so sorry to.hear your sad news.

Deena said...

Hugs to you. So sorry for your loss :(

Tania Smith said...

Dear Danita, your post moved me to tears. Having a pet that is a member of your family always means the risk of heartbreak when they pass on from us, but knowing that never makes the loss easier to bear. I have a little dog I just adore and I dread the day he leaves me. My heart is with you and your family today and I hope that your happy memories of Lennon will bring you much comfort in time. With best wishes

What Remains Now said...

My deepest sympathy to you and all who loved Lennon. This is one of the hardest things to go through and my heart breaks for you. Rest in peace, dear Lennon.

TheLydiaT said...

Oh Dear Danita, tears in my eyes, its NEVER easy to lose a furry loved one. You gave each other a great life full of unconditional love, blessings and love to you and your family.

Sue Marrazzo said...

Awe,,so sorry for your loss.

Margriet said...

What a wonderful and sweet dog. I'm so sorry for you loss!

Alyice Edrich said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs and healing thoughts.

Rosa Lily said...

In tears here to. He was so loved and that's all that matters. A wonderful post in memory of your darling boy x

emily franz said...

Danita...what a beautiful tribute to a lovely, sweet animal. Yes, he added new dimension to your life and from now on you can love another dog again. I type this with tears in my eyes. I am touched by the love you had for each other. I hope you can find happiness again with a new puppy to love.

bellefrogworks said...

I too am in tears. I have lost dogs before and they always remain a piece of who I am. That was a sweet doggie - you can see it in his face. I know there is real grief when you lose a pet - I pray that you will find healing and a peace about it. I know you will miss your friend.

CC said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. he was lucky to have you and the same for you. God bless.

La Minomalice said...

Lo siento mucho, Danita! Amo a los animales y me han dado tantísimo a lo largo de mi vida que entiendo muy bien lo que sientes. He llorado al leerte, pues sé el dolor tan grande que produce una pérdida así. Pues son uno más de la familia, siempre atentos, siempre cariñosos. Te mando un enorme abrazo de comprensión y cariño!

Tiges and Weince said...

I feel your heartache I have been here twice before. the joy an animal leaves behind is priceless, he sounded like a perfect companion.

Gingermelon said...

Sending hugs and thoughts your way... So glad to hear that Lennon touched your life in such special ways!
~Shelly

Silvia LGD (Little Green Doll) said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Danita... A big hug for you.

Samantha Read said...

I am so sorry to read this Lennon was truly a wonderful gift to you and your family. I have no words to help but know I will be thinking of you lots, big hugs xxx

Anonymous said...

My eyes filled up with tears also as I read this. We lost two Yorkies over the years and it just rips a hole in your heart. But it is okay to let them go to their happy place. I know one day I will be reunited with my Yorkies and will so happy seeing them running to me. God bless you and happy Lennon brought you so many years of unconditional love. A big hug to you.

margherita arrighi said...

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Cameron said...

What a special boy....and a wonderful gift you gave yourself by facing your fear...the gift of love :)

Rest in Peace, Dear Lennon <3

Alles-Art said...

What a heartfelt story!
I am sitting here crying as well. I am sorry for your loss, Danita!

huntla1 said...

Danita, I am coming by this news a little late, but I am so sorry. I know how absolutely heart breaking this is. I have been there before, a couple of times. My fur babies were just that -- my babies and totally part of the family. It is so hard when they are gone, but the memories and the love they give are so worth it. I pray for you and you family that you all will heal soon.

Eclectic Works said...

Thank you for sharing your beautiful words of tribute for your dear friend Lennon. It brought tears to my eyes. Our dear pets truly do share a lot with us if we pay attention to that what they are trying to teach us...love, loyalty, friendship, patience and so many other wonderful qualities. So very sorry to you and Mr. Danita and your children for your loss.

Little Brown Rabbit said...

I've got tears in my eyes, thinking of you & your family Danita xx

Karla said...

"Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened" - Anatole France

So sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

what a beautiful little thing Lennon was. I am so sorry for your loss. Lennon taught u so much.u r very lucky. terveisin Anette

Domi (ArtCraftSecrets) said...

I just discovered your blog and was very touched and moved to tears by your post: I grew up with dogs as a little girl and know too well how heart breaking it is to lose these furry friends when they pass away. I'm so very sorry for your loss Danita, you have my deepest sympathy as Lennon was clearly part of the family and a loyal, lovely friend. Sending you a big bear hug from London in the U.K. Dominique X

Poppy Q said...

So sorry for your loss, what a lovely post about sweet Lennon.

Julie Q

Danita said...

Thank you all for your sympathy messages, it really means a lot to me. It's a difficult time and your love has helped me to accept and move on.

Thank you for your love, from the bottom of my heart <3

Teresa Kogut said...

Tears are flowing. I feel so sad for your loss, Danita. Dogs truly have an amazing spirit. I've had a special dog in my life since I was 6 yrs old and have grieved the loss of losing them over the years. It is very difficult but your heart will heal with time. God Bless.

Jane George said...

i am crying so hard i can hardly see to send you my love and hugs xxxx